The more I observe this life I am experiencing, the more I can observe the patterns, the repetitions that are composing the course of my existence.
I used to be afraid of this, at first.
Denoting the cycles was interpreted as a confirmation of a final judgment coming for us all at one point; and for final judgement, I mean that, unconsciously, inside of me there was the pending terror of punishment.
Safe to say, it is heavy to live like this.
To live a life where we don’t move from the heart, a place of Love and healthy values, but a life lived in fear; deep, unconscious fear.
It makes many of us live like little kids trying to avoid to be in the sight of teachers, in order to play mischief; all the while, being very confused about what is mischievous and what it is not.
This can possibly find its original roots from very different and ancient causes.
To name a few (in all the infinite possibilities this life can offer):
It can be due to religious matters, as many religions followed the trend of a divine figure ready to observe, judge and punish us from above, leaving no place for us to hide, and eventually take us to court and rewind all actions, decisions and words of our lives once we separate from our human body.
It can be due to the family environment people come from. As many of us had to experience growing up in toxic households, the thought of a life where the patterns of childhood are silently and mystically repeated can be, sadly, comforting.
It can be generational trauma. In the past, way too many had to endure times of oppressive and abusive powers.
Yet, times are now different in other realms.
Even if on the physical plane horrible events are still taking place, many are tapping into higher realities, allowing the truth to be relevantly revealed.
No one came here on Earth to experience a life in fear and despair; no being should be trembling about the unfolding of their paths.
We came here to learn.
And from learning, eventually, passing on the knowledge we acquired to others.
The learning experience is not meant to be an easy one, one where we pick up the
information immediately and we become masters in a day.
It is a process, intertwining infinite possibilities with a mixture of teachings, observations, testing, applications, experiences, trials and errors. Failures over failures. And then, in our own way, finding the way to assimilate and eventually, succeed.
Yet, success has never been the main goal in the bigger scheme.
Placed into the bigger picture, the achievements have the same importance and value of the times we failed.
The student and the master are branches of the same tree, experiencing a different season, in the same universe.
And that’s how we can embrace karma as a part of the experience, instead of fearing it as an unnecessary punishment.
Karma is simply the restoration of balance.
In order for an experience to be fully lived and integrated, we need to go full circle.
Experiencing all the shades of the spectrum allows us to embody freedom.
Free from duality (good-bad, wrong-correct- black-white, true-false, worthy-unworthy, slow-fast, love-hate, deep-shallow, and infinitely so on…)
Living multiple perspectives at a time, brings us to open our hearts and our minds.
It permits us to find deeper compassion for our siblings and for ourselves.
And on a deeper level, it restores harmony.
If an apple falls on the ground, another apple will eventually grow on the tree.
It is not a punishment towards the apple, to replace it and let it rot on the ground or being eaten; as it not a punishment for the tree to lose a fruit or gain more weight on a branch.
It is a cycle, that has its own meaning to exist the way it is.
In buddhism, it is believed that a mistake it is an opportunity.
You gained the opportunity to observe it and admit to yourself that you committed a sin.
Therefore, you will gain the knowledge to rectify your actions and do different.
No punishment. Growth.
At my latest sitting in Begnas Lake, at the end of the course we got presented with a video about the effect of teaching Vipassana in prisons.
It touched me very deeply.
The idea that no matter the crime those people had committed, the real aim of their staying in confinement is not due to mere punishment.
It is correction.
It is to provide the tools to them to behave differently once they will be released, to allow them to remember that they are human beings and as such, they commit mistakes.
Can you imagine taking this grace, this insight, and placing into your heart?
To gift yourself the same compassion, and instead of drowning in the sea of your regrets and sense of guilt, decide it is time to swim?
Realise that trying to float is not going to be the answer, but taking a different approach and action might be?
Embrace your past mistakes and bow to the lessons they brought your way.
They never happened for you to be drenched in negativity, they happened for your highest good; for your best expansion.
I know and feel, deeply, that this life is too precious to be meant to live in fear of the past or the future.
To walk with the actions of the times that were burdening us down.
As per illogical it might sound, they were leading the way for us.
So let's give thanks, rise above it like the eagle and start anew, better and with more self experience.
Be proud of your mistakes and the foundations they laid under your feet.
"Are you carrying a weight too heavy to bear?
What would happen if you'd let it go?"
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